Usually I would have stopped my blog completely, shut it down. When i start these phases i know i can’t give 100%. After i get my composure and am back on a good track i feel like a quitter. Instead of starting back up where i stopped i convince myself usining the hypothosis i will just stop again the next rough spot i hit. I know it’s a crutch and not any kind of solution worthy of my time. There was a time i didn’t know that but now that i do i have to do better. So this time i vowed to continue to do the best i could. While sharing the experience with you along the way. The good , the bad , and the ugly. I’ts obviouos by my hiatuses there has been quite a bit of ugly. Proving that postive people on a growing journey, struggle just like everyone else. We get challenged and waiver. When we start a new beggining we have to learn the way before we are steady enough to exlpore and survive alone again. We just view the experience different. Using the stones and boulders to make our foundation stronger and our rise up higher. Everyone has different issues they have to overcome. Mine is not depression praise God. I have been there. Mine is just struggling to find my place still. Making it harder to trust my decisions and not second guess mysef. I know this is a routine part of moving to the next phase, but knowing doesn’t make the process easier. It just gives you the experience to know what’s on the other side, the outcome. When you enter a new phase in your life you get butterflies from the unknowing ahead. You know the kind that you like but have a touch of spooky that comes with them. That feeling you get when you are reading a great book and you can’t turn the page fast enough to see what’s coming next. What matters is if you allow your doubts to set in or if you shake them off by changing your mind set. Allowing you and only you dictate what happens next. i have found my spare time being filled with (other than the normal necessities) our second sons wedding ( November 4th) and the book. My next goal is to incorporate and update you back into my scheadule. I’m working back towards a pattern where im back sharing the knowledge of why literature is a major factor in stretching your horizons. Offering you continued growth always. Along with a encouraging post or two. I would love to hear from you. Share your feedback on what has and hasn’t worked for you. How does your journey look and feel since our paths crossed? You can always reach me at BrokenWingSociety@mail.com. This would help me greatly for choosing my next book by using the information you share. Life is a roller coaster. The exhileration of the up and down it provides. You want the down swoops as brief and quick as possible. The climbs to take a bit so syou can enjoy it and your surroundings. Of course the decent. The decent you know will be quick but you don’t want it to be to quick you will forget it or the feeling it brings. You want to enjoy the wind taking your breath away blowing your skin back. Without the decent you can’t have the rush of the climb. Isn’t that what the whole ride is about? The excitement of the rise and the feeling . of not wanting it to end. All the while secretly having to remind yourself over and over (mindset) you’ll be fine when the downslope comes. You remind yourself to breath after the drop and eventually take in the thrill. Counting your blessings on the rise and seeing what you hadn’t seen before. Once you choose to accept you exsist in a place where tomorrow never been a guarantee. You will find your decision making leaving you with a lot more memorable yesterdays. Take a deep breath, remind yourself your okay. You got this. Open your eyes as wide as you can and take as much as you can in. Feel the wind on your face and enjoy every second of the ride. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Learn from it and share it everytime you feel led.
116 Days into our transistion with mom – coming up on 4 months – the light at the end of the tunnell should be come clear soon. Ready to know where we will be going and how much we can do to make her comftorable with us.
October 24th 2022 – 11 Days until the Wedding
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