Change requires something foreign of you. Different than normal. Humans crave the peace of consistency and comfort. Change is in no way that and then a lot more. Change causes strife in your veins. Pushing you to doubt yourself. We strive for normalcy because our cozy is in what we know. We don’t like the unknown. Websters definition of change :

1) To become different

That three word statement would bring the strongest of self esteem to have anxiety and fear to shoot up at warp speed.

2) To undergo transformation, transition or substitution

As exciting as transforming and transitioning sounds I think we all would agree there’s not one part of that which sounds pleasing. Do able but not enjoyable to start.

Change will never feel comftorable. But if you can keep a positive attitude ane outlook. Truly trust the process. Work through the pain / anxiety, fear, and doubts the plateaus you can experience are unfathomable. Why not pick happiness when the alternative is to be physicaly and mentaly depleted.
According to http://www.webmd.com > mental health: Major life changes are automatically viewed by our brains as negativity. The pull is difficult enough to manuever and needs no help. http://www.verywellmind.com-how to get better dealing with change states “Change, whether it’s positive or negative, can create stress that affects both your physical and mental well being”. Known to cause not only anxiety, depression/sadness, but headaches as well. You cohtrol your thoughts. Your thoughts create your outlook. Your outlook is the key to your happiness. Even with my positivity, i still continue to have days i struggle. Doubts and fears creep in. It takes every ounce of energy to not give it time or value. We have kept our routine as normal as possible. Continuing to work towards our new way. God has already revealed reasons this change is taking place. We will continue to embrace all this brings. Sharing the experience with you along the way.

1 Week In

It’s official, we moved items into my moms today. Tommorow we pick up the uhaul and move our possesions to a new home. I should explain, storage building. We have spent 2,120 days in this home. We survived a hurricaine with a toddler. Shared the blessings with two littles and one grandmiracle for the first five years. Entertained and have really utilized the lake. Hosted a womans small business bizzare, bunco night and many dream filled stays of littles. My most cherished memory will be my youngest growing into a young man. The amazement of this place completed him. He has shown he has the wisdom to guide him far beyond his years. When we close the door behind us Thursday, hand over the keys and head to our next chapter he will not be following us. He has choosen another place to stay. I would be more than surprised if when we reached our new destination that he will not be joining us. This is our last little. Our real empty nester moment has arriived. This is our fourth little and it never gets easier. Having the time to work on me for the past decade definetly has made me stronger. My heart is sorrowed by the evolvment however my soul has learned to respect and embrace the process of the shift. The quicker i open up and work through the process the easier it makes it on them. We are the example after all. You have to endure that sadness for a second to recieve the gift of happiness until. The staying/seeking positivity helps keep me charged for lifes twists and the ability to handle them with as minimal stress possible.

With the anticipation of whats to come and working towards achieving it, staying focused on my feelings and accepting my limits is vital at this moment. Sharing with my words is the only way i know to explain it. I hope being able to share my experience will help you. Being able to see how using a slightly different, happier lens per say approach, can make transitioning a little less painless. Continue your focus and listen to your soul. Make that daily recenter moment a necessity. Even if the only time you can find is your shower time. Bliss and Blessed are closer than ever to being part of your daily vocabulary you use to describe you. Im excited to here your experience and where it takes you.

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6 More Days

After the finale of moving on and making memories palooza (on top of still working, packing, reserving storage buildings and uhauls) we jumped in feet first to a getaway weekend with friends. Collaborated back in Febuary, before we knew we were moving, it was a anniversary/Fathers Day gathering. Kid Rock, a lot of spirits, and every night catching up until the late hours of the evening. Good times were had by all. Exactly what we wanted and nobody went home dissapointed. Until we all got home and each of us had caught the yucks. Kinda were glad. We thought wow we are all spent after one weekend. We are pleased now to know it wasn’t the old age as much as it was the sickness. The energy in the air had a shift. The man child had a false positive Covid test and bought himself a week home. Sounds good huh? Nope because he had already planned ahead of our unexpected move and took the following week off. Then if maybe that just wasnt quite enough his dependable. help decided to become not so dependable on the weekend we rented the uhaul for and won’t be able to make it. Meaning to me that something amazing and blssful as where we are now is coming. Amazment the ole Devil wants to keep us preoccupied from seeing it. All it really does is make me more aware and keeps my eyes and ears open. Being thankful for people who are helpful when we are in over our heads along on our way. To release the negative energy and unravel my frazzle i grab my float and sometimes a friend. For a hour or two i let the sun and waves destress, rejuvinate and leaving what i can’t change on the water. Yes, I feel the huge sting of leaving what has been our oasis. But the anticipation of where this next phase is taking us is intriguing me more. I have no control over the situation. I can’t change it and stay. its the finale and i do decide what thougt i take with me about the experience. I choose to complete this ending with filling all the joy, friendship and growth in my memory bank and walk away blessed and at peace. Embracing the excitement of what’s to come.

7 More Days

During the precious time i shared with some of my grandmiracles we closed this chapter the only positive way we could. Enjoying every peace this place ever offered us. We added some friends, shopped, ordered in even had a dance party. Stayed up till wee hours of the morning several times (well the glamps and the pre teens at least). Got one sick kid well and one well kid sick. Played the new bottle game. You secure the bottle to the fan, blindfold and do your best not to get hit. Recomend watching, not so much playing or encouraging to play. More shopping, played hide and seek and amongus of course. Which might i say i only got to be the imposter once, a little dissapointing. Watched how to create anime clips ( i learned something new) and danwed our neighbors with our presence and shared their cement pond until after hours. We even saw a mermaid tail splashing in the water. When it rained we built amazing forts out of the packed boxes. Equipped with theater, snack holes, seperate room for solitude yet easy access when wanted. I did such a fabulous job i was even invited to sleep in with the last night. Did i pay for it, of course, i had a rough couple days after but the memory that gave those littles will something we won’t forget. The pains aren’t going away nor will they get better but the memories will fade if not made.. Oh how better they get the more you focus on making. To give up and let the memories be of the past or someone else doing is not living and never acceptable. On that note as we managed to devour three, twelve count boxes of rocket popsicles cause we could, completed a few of our favorite things and then some. We are finising this chapter and not looking back on the what ifs in this book. Everything we loved we did, what we wanted to do but hadn’t got done (the whole lake was swam and walked) taken care of. The Lake Life was lead and anythihng it offered we embraced. FYI swimming in the rain in the lake oh a windy day is not what its cracked up to be. A memory though indeed. We created our blissful and blessed closure. We could have talked about our happy memories made here in this home. All that would have done was brought sorrow to the soul for what we were losing. Not to mention sealing the fate of the memory we would have taken with us when we left. Growing sullen energy and allowing the negative thoughts to be embedded and keeping the bad memories primaraly at the top. Our way created memories to keep us smiling and laughing. Noticing all the beauty and joy the blessings of this home gave us as we embrace and thank it by enjoying it. The time was used wisely and will forever be cherised. Unfortuanetly reality awaits us and getting our busy on is vital.

8 Days Left

I’ve been slacking with my posts. First I caught the sickness and kicked my lupus in. When I recovered from that i was blessed with hosting some of my grandmiracles for this week. Along with continuing to pack. One of which isn’t feeling quite up to par. I started to get a bit aggitated with myself, discouraged. Until i reminded myself that this is what life is all about, Opportunities to make Memories. This is our last week to make memories here with the littles. I realized there will be no redos for this week. Therefore every ounce of energy is going to be used to make it as amazing as it can possibly be for all. I will post when time comes open. However i have decided it best to put a hiatus on book reviews until we are moved. I will continue to go to sleep proud of my daily accomplishments. Even if my biggest one consist of making it through the day. Contiuinig to place beside my bed the thing that i am excited to get up for. One of the greatest things to wake up for is the blessing of another fresh start. A clean slate, everyday. One more opportunity to wrong your rights. A do over, one more chance to accomplish your goals. If that’s not a reason to be excited to wake up i don’t know what is. I hope you find one thing daily that fills you with pride and keeps your confidence level high. Make your choices based on whats best for you and yours. Not just the effect it will have now but long term effects as well. Find time to be alone with yourself. Shower, bathroom visits, arrive early for an appointment. If nothing else make time in the morning before everyone gets up. Anywhere you can squeeze it in. Before you know it you will have found your pattern. Centering is so much smoother when we utilize those few loan moments to focus and regroup. Have a blessed, prosperous, productive and pleastent memories filled week. Make your world fabulous to live in.

20 Days Left

Colds, flues & coronavirus have created a guarantee that the odds are in our favor of catching at least one. I put my participation time in this past week and am on the uphill of getting back to my life and packing, Such a blessing it didn’t stick around long. It certainly wasn’t fast enough for me to realize the worst part of being sick. Not the aches, pains and lethargy. Nope, its the level of vulnerability it brings. When we are sick we are a whole other person. We become clingy , needy and want attention most of our waking time. All your things that we work so hard to not allow rush to the surface faster than we can blink. Causing every emotion you have to become heightened to the hills and beyond. So this time i wrote down four things that really bothered me. I have put them in order the way i want to review and change some things with them so it won’t bother me.

1. Needing help – I love giving. Have always struggled with recieving and asking for Figure out why it bothers me and work on fixing it
2. Frustration when resting that i can’t be productive
3. Don’t like being alone. I get bored easily
4. Staying positive instead of letting the blahs get me

I am going to start at the top and go on down. Anyone want to join me?

23 More Days

I wanted to share a bit about the Person behind the writting. Why i adopted this positive life. And how i realized the energy i put out is what i bring back in.

For so long my littles and life kept my mind busy, When they grew and life gave me alone time my demons raced to the surface as fast as they could. You guessed it i had no clue what to do with them. It opened up opportunities for things to get dark and low in my life. After realizing i needed some help. Encountered many hours of counseling, mirroring and being honest with myself and others. My base was and is God. What is your base built on?

We are almost half way through the year. How many feel good about where they are and what they have accomplished so far? If i had to guess probably not many. Thats human nature to stay down on ourselves. We are our worst critics. If you have found a way to be pleased with you and your life then you know the importance of today. National Smile Day! Imagine if everyday was national smile day? A mandatory on everyones to do list. Think about when you were having a down day and someone gave you the gift of a smile. How quickly it changed your mood, maybe your day. Pass them out as often as you can to as many people you can. Compliment others, that always gets a smile. You never know the difference you might make. And it makes you feel good to.

30 More Days

James Clear Copyright October 16th 2018

In 1936 Pshycologist Kurt Lewin wrote a simple equation.

B=f (P,E)

Behavior = function of (A Person in their Enviroment)

#1 New York Best Seller, author of Atomic Habits (selling over 4 million copies) and other books. Founder of Jamesclear.com. This 307 page book is a long read but worth every page. It will leave no doubt that you can change if you want to. James offers an easy and proven way to build good habits and break bad ones. With tiny changes remarkable results will come. He states change is a continuous process. There is no finish line. No permanent solution. The quality of our life often depends on the quality of our habits. This book teaches about the fundamentals of human behavior. Scientific research in recent decades has begun to show the connections between thoughts, feelings and behaviors. Proving what you think and speak you manifest. Starting you off slowly with two minute tasks clear shows how changes that seem small and unimportant at first will compound into remarkable results. If you’re willing to stick with it and realizing that progress requires unlearning. Using a four step model

Cue->Cravings->Response->Reward

You are not born with preset beliefs including those about yourself, is learned and conditioned through experience. We imitate the habits of three groups

*The Close

*The Many

*The Powerful

When you realize who you are the majority of the close will be help mates instead of hurtful. The many won’t matter and the powerful, well thats up to you.

How important is it to you to change? No, i should say how easy are you willing to make change be?

Every page in Atomic Habits will provide you knowledge on how to do just that. A good read for anyone on a journey to finding freedom from self.

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